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When I started the eleventh grade in August 2016, I was still grieving over Millie. One day, I had a talk with the guidance counselor at my school. I told her, "If I had known Millie was going to die, I would have been meer patient with her. There were times I lost my temper with her and just lashed out at her." The guidance counselor put her hand on my shoulder. She said, "Autumn, that's not what Millie remembers. In fact, she told me about all the times u and Glenn stood up to bullies for her." I felt better after that talk. I later met Glenn in the hall, and we walked to the lunchroom together. He asked, "How did your talk with the guidance counselor go?" I said, "It went very well." Glenn thought for a moment. Because I was so upset over Millie's death, I almost picked the habit of self-harm back up. Glenn said, "Let me ask u something. When u cut yourself, did it hurt?" I said, "Of course it hurt. Why do u ask?" He said, "I haven't made my point yet. Did your talk with the guidance counselor hurt?" I said, "No." He asked, "Does talking to me hurt?" I said, "No." He said, "Okay, my point is that u don't have to hurt yourself. u can talk to someone. u can always talk to me." I said, "Thanks, Glenn." Most of the school jaar was good. I had an awesome US History teacher. She was a Beatles fan, and she made history fun. Unfortunately, there were some other bad points. Right before we went on Fall Break, a bully punched Glenn in the face. I was angry. The bully said, "I don't want to hear the bullshit of how I just hurt your best friend!" I said, "Okay, u son of a bitch! Why don't u come over here and let me toon u what bullshit this is?!" A teacher heard me, and I was sent to the principal's office. I tried to explain the situation to the principal. The principal said, "Just go home." I did. Later, Glenn came door my house. He asked, "Are u okay?" I said, "I'm fine. Are u okay?" He said, "I'm fine." He had a black eye, but it got better. November, I was driving home pagina from a friend's house, and I had a run-in with a ginormous deer. The car was totaled. Luckily, I just had a few bruises, nothing more. Plus, we had deer meat for Thanksgiving dinner. As an early Christmas present, my paternal grandfather gave me his old car. It didn't have very many miles on it, since he and my grandmother never went far from home. Plus, it was meer convenient for him to get rid of it and keep the smaller car. It was usually just him and my grandmother. I also got a Les Paul for Christmas. I love playing it. Unfortunately, my paternal grandmother had been sick for a long time. I couldn't tell it at Thanksgiving, but I could really tell it at Christmas. My aunt had to do most, if not all, of the cooking. In January, shortly after her seventy-fifth birthday, my grandmother was put in the hospital, and she passed away the volgende morning. I was told she went peacefully, which is what I had hoped. Shortly after that, some bullies beat me up. They beat on me and while, but they soon got bored and left. I got up and limped away. Glenn, Joann, and Leroy saw me limping down the hall, and they ran to me. "Are u okay?!" Joann cried. I said, "I got beat up." Leroy asked, "Who did this to you?" I told him. Glenn said, "We'll deal with the bullies later, but we'll take care of u first. You're hurt." My loyal vrienden took me to the school nurse. She zei that I was okay, but there was a possibility that my shin was broken. I was taken to the hospital for an x-ray, and nothing was broken, except my glasses. I did have a spare, though. Leroy later beat the bullies up. He was going to be expelled, along with the bullies, but our history teacher stepped in and said, "Leroy was defending his friend." He was suspended instead. My bruises healed, and all was well again. The remainder of the jaar was really good.
One day, Erin's dog, Rusty, had an accident on the back porch. Erin sighed as she cleaned up the mess. This had been a common occurrence for the past couple of months. It was mid-July, and Rusty had turned fifteen in the middle of April. Fifteen is old for a dog, especially a collie, because a collie's average lifespan is eleven to thirteen years. Sometime later, Paul called her and invited her to his house to play guitar. After playing gitaar for a while, Paul suggested going for a walk outside. His dogs, Yukon and Nunavut, went with them. Yukon and Nunavut were both Siberian Huskies, considerably...
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One day, Erin and Paul had a major disagreement. Pretty soon, it got really ugly. Erin pretended she needed to use the restroom so that she could cry. When she came out, Allie said, "Erin, you've been in there a long time. Are u okay?" Erin said, "No, I'm not." Allie asked, "What happened?" Erin said, "Paul and I got into an argument." Allie said, "Oh, no. I'm so sorry. What were u two arguing about?" Erin said, "I don't want to talk about it." Then, she walked away. It was an awful feeling, arguing with her best friend. She had to make up with him. She just had to! She couldn't lose her...
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Several months passed. Erin and her vrienden were now in the tenth grade. They were used to the high school environment door then. The bullying certainly didn't go away. One day, one of the bullies put a kick me sign on Paul's back. Erin saw that. She cleared her throat. One of the bullies said, "She's got a facial scar. We probably shouldn't mess with her." Another one of the bullies said, "Yeah. She looks totally evil." They ran off. Paul said, "Thanks, Erin." She smiled and took the kick me sign off his back. She then said, "You know I wouldn't hurt a fly." He said, "Yes, I know. They don't...
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Long after Erin had recovered from her illness, Paul had invited her to come to his house after school. It was on a Friday, and her aunt and uncle allowed her to go. She and Paul played their guitars for a while. About an uur later, Paul said, "You know, it's unusually nice for January. What do u say we go outside?" Erin smiled and said, "I'm not opposed." They went outside and played with Paul's Siberian Huskies, Yukon and Nunavut. As they were playing, Erin accidentally ran into a low boom branch. The force knocked her to the ground. Erin zei to herself, "Ouch! That's going to leave a...
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One day, Erin did not wake up when her alarm went off. Her aunt came into her bedroom to check on her. Erin was awake, but she was shivering. She zei to her aunt, "I don't feel well at all." Her aunt said, "You sound like you're stuffed up." Erin was feverish. Her aunt said, "I think u need to see a doctor." The doctor diagnosed it as sinusitis. It was probably a result of her allergies to ragweed pollen. Ragweed had been in bloom, and its pollen was spreading about the area. Erin's doctor told her to get plenty of rest and take some medication for her symptoms. Later that day, her friends,...
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Months had passed, and Erin was getting ready to start high school. She was a bit nervous, considering she was among the youngest in her grade. Her brother, Daniel, said, "You don't have to be scared. I'll be there." She said, "Thanks, Daniel. My vrienden will be there, too. It's good that I'll be seeing familiar faces." He said, "There u go. u won't be alone." Her first dag wasn't so great. In her first class, one of her classmates put a kick me sign on her back. Luckily, when she left, her friend, Paul, noticed it and took it off. She asked, "What's going on, Paul?" He said, "This." He...
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One day, Erin was feeling sad. She ate very little for breakfast, and she went back to her bedroom. Soon, she got tired of the silence, so she put in one of her CD's. The put in System of a Down's Steal This Album! As she was listening to it, she heard a knock on the door. She said, "Come in, whoever it is." Her brother, Daniel, came in. He said, "Hey, little sis. Are u okay?" She said, "I'm fine. Why do u ask?" He said, "You're not okay. You're listening to Steal This Album!, Erin. Steal This Album! only comes out when you're sad." She said, "You know what dag it is today, don't you?"...
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One day, Erin went for a walk in the forest with her dog, Rusty. Even though it was cold, the sun was shining. Overall, it was a beautiful day. However, Erin made sure she was dressed warmly. After all, it was December, and the weather could change in unexpected ways. Suddenly, it started to snow. Erin zei to her dog, "Come on, Rusty. We better head home pagina before it gets dark." Unfortunately, the snow was falling so hard that she couldn't see where she was going. She stepped on a loose rock, and all of the sudden, she was on the ground. She managed to get up. Her loyal dog rushed to her side....
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One Friday night, Erin was listening to the radio in her bedroom. She always like listening to the classic rock station. Sometimes it played some Beatles songs. However, it had been a long dag for Erin. She was exhausted, and she fell asleep. The volgende day, she woke up, and her friend, Allie, was standing volgende to her bed. Allie had a concerned look on her face. She asked, "Erin, are u okay?" Erin replied, "I'm fine. Why do u ask?" Allie said, "Well, for one thing, it's almost 10:30. Your aunt told me you're usually awake door 10:00 on a Saturday morning. For another thing, u left the radio...
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A few weeks later, Erin saw her friend, Benny, at school. He cheerfully greeted her, and she greeted him. He said, "I'm sorry I couldn't come to your birthday party. I was really sick." She smiled and said, "It's okay, Barry. I understand. Your mom told me u had the flu." He said, "Yeah. It was awful. I would have come to your party, but I felt awful. I just felt like death, Erin." She said, "That sounds awful. Are u feeling better now?" He said, "Yeah." She said, "That's good." He said, "You know, I was just talking to Paul. He told me u got a gitaar for your birthday." She said, "Yeah,...
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It was December 9, 2010, Erin's fourteenth birthday. She was sitting on the back porch with her collie, Rusty. Although she was excited about her vrienden coming over to celebrate her birthday, she also felt a bit sad. She always felt some sadness on her birthday and on holidays, because her mother wasn't there. Her mother had died almost two years geleden of myocarditis. Since then, she and her older brother, Daniel, live with their aunt and uncle and their cousin, Barbara Ann. A few moments later, her grandmother came out. She asked, "Erin, what are u doing out here door yourself?" Erin replied,...
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I woke up to a thumping sound. I asked, "What was that?" Paul said, "I'd say it was a car door being shut. I think my parents are back." I said, "I see." I heard the front door open. I then heard a woman's voice say, "Paul, we're back. Where are you?" Paul replied, "In here, Mother." She came into the living room. When she saw me, she asked, "Who is this?" He said, "This is my friend, Erin." She said, "So, you're Erin. Paul talks about u all the time." I said, "Good things, I hope." Paul said, "All good!" His mother smiled. She asked, "When was the last time u had something to eat?" I said,...
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The volgende dag at 3:30, I met Grandpa at Eagle River. He said, "You wanted to see me." I said, "Yes, Grandpa, I did." He asked, "Have u come to terms with your sins, Erin?" I said, "That's what I wanted to talk to u about." He looked at me curiously. I continued, "You see, I don't appreciate your hypocrisy. u claim to be a Christian. I distinctly remember reading somewhere that the Bible says, 'Thou shalt not kill.' However, u have murdered my father and my friend, Barry. Why, Grandpa? Why?!" Grandpa replied, "Your father was an atheist. I decided to send him straight to Hell." I said,...
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One day, I was walking in the forest with Allie and Paul. As we were walking, I saw a truck. I said, "Quick! Hide in the bushes!" Allie said, "What? Why?" I said, "I'll explain later." We hid in the bushes until there was no sign of the truck. Paul asked, "Why were we hiding? Who was that?" I said, "My grandfather." Allie said, "Oh..." I said, "I haven't seen him in so long. I'm afraid he'll beat me again." Allie said, "I see." I said, "And u know what he did to Barry and to my father. I don't want him to do the same thing to u two." Paul said, "Erin..." I said, "I love u too much to...
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One day, I woke up thinking it was a Saturday. I went back to sleep, but my aunt woke me up. She said, "Erin, it's time to get up." I asked, "Why do I need to get up so early on a Saturday?" She said, "You're a dag off. It's Friday, dear." I groaned. She said, "Come on, Erin. It's not that bad." I said, "I don't have any friends. It's not worth it." She said, "Maybe today will be your lucky day." That gave me the strength to get out of bed. Later in gym class, I was bullied again. I pretended that I needed to use the restroom so that I could cry. I hid in the stall and cried. A few moments...
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After losing my best friend, Barry, I slipped into a depression. My grandparents refused to see me. My less consistent vrienden turned their backs on me. The only ones there for me were my aunt and uncle, my brother, Daniel, and my cousin, Barbara Ann. I had very little, if any, self-confidence. I didn't even try to confront Grandpa again, fearing he would beat me again. The only thing that brought me any happiness was music. I still enjoyed the Beatles above all others, but I liked to explore different bands as well. I overheard someone talking about a metal band called System of a Down, so...
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A few months passed, and I was still suspicious of Grandpa. He continued to give out hints that he probably murdered my father when I was really young. Grandma never spoke to me, unless I spoke to her. When I asked her about my father, she dodged the vraag and changed the subject. Either she was involved, of she was trying to protect Grandpa. One cold December day, I was walking in the forest with my dog. I suddenly heard someone faintly say my name. I looked over and saw Barry. He was lying in the snow, shivering. I said, "Oh, my God! Barry! What happened?!" He zei weakly, "I was walking...
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Despite the fact that I no longer had Christian faith, I still went to church to amuse my grandparents. I said, "I don't believe in their ways anymore." My aunt said, "I know, Erin. This is to amuse Grandma and Grandpa. It makes them happy." I said, "All right, but here's a warning. Someday, I'm going to get tired of smiling and nodding." One day, I did. Because of my opinionated antwoorden to Grandma's vragen in Sunday School, I got kicked out of Sunday School. When Grandpa found out, I knew I was in trouble. After lunch that Sunday, Grandpa zei to me, "Let's go outside." That never meant...
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Ever since I had lost my mother, muziek helped me cope. I didn't have very many vrienden at school. I got bullied a lot, and meer so after my mother's death. The only consistent friend I had was my best friend, Barry. He was there for me during the funeral and everything. One day, he said, "Well, it's been two months, hasn't it?" I said, "Yeah." He said, "I know it's been painful and difficult for you." I said, "Yeah, I miss my mother very much, but I'm doing okay." He said, "I can't imagine what that's like, but if u need to talk, I'm here." I said, "Thanks, Barry." Even my vrienden in Sunday...
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One day, I noticed that my mother wasn't acting right. She was very pale and seemed lethargic. She also had a terrible cough. She went to the doctor and was diagnosed with pneumonia. She was later put in the hospital. The doctor zei that things weren't looking good. It wasn't pneumonia; it was much worse. It was myocarditis. Suddenly, it happened. Her hart-, hart stopped beating. The doctor tried to revive her, but to no avail. I still remember the chilling words like they were zei yesterday: "Time of death: 11:32 pm." I did not want to believe I had lost my mother. At first, I blamed the doctor...
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