THIS CANT BE HAPPENING TO ME ITS TOO EARLY THEIRS SO MUCH WE DIDNT GET TO DO of SEE of of I J-JUST CANT HANDLE THIS!!!! I zei as I punched rocs chest
Me:Roc please tell me this is a bad dream please please please please please please I zei as I cried my eyes out


Roc:LEAH LEAH LEAH LEAH wake up Your having a nightmare
I opened my eyes and found myself in rocs arms ,still crying "Why has this happened to me" I hate this I hate it I hate it!"
I got up and ran to the bathroom and grabbed a razor I cut and cut and cut my arms until my wrists were covered in bright red blood
Me:Why did he have to die Roc why?
Roc:Who? Who died?
Me:Princeton he just died yesterday at the hospital remember he got fucking shot door fucking aiden!!"


Roc: Leah. ..babe aidens in prison and Princeton's not dead hes at his cousin's house"
Me:What!?
Roc:Leah u had a nightmare it wasnt true,I had to wake u up before u screamed any louder

your sleep
Me:Y-you -mean- Princeton's Princeton's alive
Roc: Wow u really had a bad Nightmare didnt you
I nodded my head and put my head in his chest "Im really sorry roc I dont know whats happening to me roc, I just cant think straight anymore"
Roc: it's ok as long as your ok
Me:I was really scared I thought he was dead, and I kept taking my anger out on u
Roc: Come downstairs ive got a suprise for you!
Me:Roc im not really in the mood right now
Roc:Trust me you'll love this one
Me:Roc promise me u won't tell anyone about this
Roc:That might be hard cos im pretty sure u screaming woke the whole neighborhood" He zei as he giggled and wiped the tears from my face
Me:Thank you!
Roc:What for?
Me:For everything your always their when I need u and your just amazing , I mean even when I take all my anger out on you, And I do that alot, u still stick with me,thank u so much
Roc: Cmon lets go downstairs
He grabbed my hand and pulled me up from the cold, Bloody bathroom floor,He told me to close my eyes,So I did what I was told
Roc: 3-2-1 open your eyes
Me:No way O my god! A puppy, I have always wanted a puppy but my mum zei its too much cleaning up after and a waste of money!
I ran up to the puppy and gave it a huge hug
Roc:So what do u think? Do u like? I thought u needed some cheering up
Me:"Roc I love it, Your the best" I zei running into his arms and giving him a huge hug "I love u Roc"
Roc: I don't think Princeton would approve of u saying that
I giggled and pulled back "you know what I mean" I zei as I looked down to the ground
Me:Im so sorry I just got blood on u shirt
Roc: I really don't care, I just (GCO because u start crying)
Me: Roc im scared I cant take care of this baby on my own
Roc:Your not alone u have me, Princeton,ray,Josh, all u friends, Your family
Me:Ha what family, My mum and dad never come home pagina cos their always travelling and Princeton is mad at me and just left
Roc: Princeton is not mad at u he just needs some time to get his head around everything, just give him some Time
Me: He should be mad at me, This isn't even his baby roc
Roc: Calm down Leah things will happen how they happen, Everything happens for a reason

I walked over to the divan, bank and played with the puppy
Me: whats its name?
Roc:Her name is whatever u want
Me:Ill name her truffles
Roc:O Cmon thats so common
Me:I know but ive planned this to be her name since I was 4 im not changing it now
Roc: ok ok














Very sorry about making u guys cry in the last chapter but at least it was only a dream and dnt u think roc is just soooooooo sweet and sorry for not publishing in a while ive been pretty busy but im back

Luv u guys and wait for it #Staymindless :-P