I used to have days when i felt like that all the time, when u just feel randomly happy and bright. but I don't think I've had any genuine days like that for nearly 2 years. I used to have those kinda days all the time when my life was perfect in prettymuch every way imaginable, 2 years ago.
It was a normal dag so far. But for some reason about 10 minuten after watching the same, old AMV's of my OTP I began to have an intense heartache feeling like I was hurting myself badly with that. Weirdly this never happened before. I do get happy and comforted when I see that stuff, but that time just felt weird af.