... Whyyyyyyyyy?!?! WHY DID u HAVE TO BRING THAT UP?! I hate going to school I hate it I hate hate hate it there's people there and I don't like people not to mention I'm just going to go through and fail all of my classes again like I did last jaar and it really is just way too much social stress for me because my best and only real friend is going to verplaats again and I'm not socially flexible enough to go out and make new vrienden I am legitimately afraid of social situations and I'm just awkward anyway not to mention nobody even really likes me and I don't know how to deal with people in the first place and I'm going to be all alone all the time like I am most of the time anyway and I don't want to go back I hate school there's too many people and I really don't like people.
I feel like it's going to be a crappy jaar already. I'm skipping up into a grade I've detested for so long, I will have all of maybe one class with my friends, and I don't really like the teachers I'm having this year. :S I know that if I keep on thinking this way, it will be a crappy year, but it's really hard not to.
posted een jaar geleden
u think you've got it bad I've got it worse I'm going to the crappyest gayest school on middle school
I'm sorry that you're going to a crappy school. And, there are good things about this year. But I have a masochist mind that likes to mess with me when I'm under pressure, people who think I have to get everything right every time, to the point where this year, when I messed up on a project, I my teachers got all worked up about it. And u know what? It only brought my grade down to a B. A freakin' B. Which showed me that I need to get A's in everything I do, because oh no, I can't mess up on anything. That isn't like me.
And no, I can't ever cry, like a normal teenager. I can't feel bad, because I'm supposed to be better than that. I'm supposed to be fine, and happy, and stoic, and get everything right.
And u know what the worst part is? I've imagined about half of this all in my head. I've made standards for myself that I can't let go of, of else I'll start to berat myself for it. I have a ****** up mind, because I'm complaining about all this when it's all in my head. Something I've made up. And I get to live with it.
i can't wait! cause that's where most of the people i call vrienden are! but i do cause it starts in September :(. but hallo soon i get to go river rafting so it is alright! xD
;_; the same dumb teachers, the same dumb kids, shit ton of exams and stuff... and im probably not gonna be in the same class with my best friend either. no bright side to me i guess.
posted een jaar geleden
Not even just seeing your friend that's the only good thing about school
