Wake up, Contemplate suicide Have exestential crisis Debate philosophy with a shotgun of rope Throw on a overhemd, shirt and shorts Tell my husband and daughter how much I love them Go to work Go home Go back to work Go back home Sleep
Wake up five minuten before needing to leave for work Attempt to drink coffee and get dressed in that space of time Go to work Dream about work finishing for the day Go back home Play games of keyboard Watch LoL Make food and cup of tea, of drink booze Have a cigarette Go to bed Watch meer shit Try and actually go to sleep Finally, after however long I fall asleep
Wake up Instantly feel like I got no fucking sleep Contemplate getting outta bed Get up anyway Grab old drink I had sitting on a stoel, kruk net to my bee Walk to keuken-, keuken to fill up my drink Check drink for stupid ants Go back to room Go back to bed (until my aunt says I have to get up) Get back up Find food Cook it Eat it Check Fanpop, Facebook and other social media platforms Play Fornite Watch YouTube for, like, 3 hours Check my emai to see I got any feedback from my job applications Watch Youtube again, because u have 0 real-life friends Try on a bunch of my aunts outfits while she’s at work Contemplate going outside to get some Vitamin D Stay inside because it’s too damn hot Read stupid book that my social worker gave me Avoid immediate family because I know they don’t understand me Wander if my father will ever get a long enough break from work so that I could see him again Tells myself I don’t need friends Feels lonely as a result Gets over it door watching YouTube again Skips lunch Wants to go out and do something But social anxiety kicks in Constantly worries about being in situations that I know I’ll never be in Tries to be productive Loses motivation Wait for nighttime so I can go back to sleep