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It was the end of Valentine’s Day. I wished I could get something for Ashley. Maybe volgende jaar I would be braver. I was alone in my room when I decided to call Ashley. I wouldn’t tell him I loved him yet, I just wanted to hear his voice. I picked up my phone and dialed his number. As I held the phone to my ear I heard a faint ring.
‘Hello?’ I heard Ashley’s voice.
‘Hi,’ I said, ‘this is Andy.’
‘It’s the middle of the night,’ he replied, ‘What do u need?’
‘I was just, uh, going to ask u something,’ I stumbled over my words, ‘sorry.’
Now I had to tell him, but I had no idea what to say. I tried to plan out what I would say, but he spoke too fast and I couldn’t think straight.
‘What is it?’ he asked.
The words poured out of me.
‘Ashley I love you, I want to be with you. I’ve wanted to tell u for a long time, but I was scared.’
‘I, I would,’ he said. ‘It’s just that I’m with someone. If u had told me sooner we could have…’
I hung up so I wouldn’t start crying on the phone. I sobbed into my pillow. Why didn’t I know he was with someone? I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. Maybe if I lost weight, maybe then…
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I lie in my bed. My hart-, hart was torn. I didn’t know he loved me. I wish he hadn’t told me. I wished I didn’t have to deal with this. But I had to choose. I loved Andy first, but I was in a bed with someone already. I wrapped my arm around his waist and kissed him. I wouldn’t choose just yet. I zei no to Andy and I can change my mind any time.
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I heard what Ashley was talking about. I knew he wouldn’t leave me, but I couldn’t help worrying. I couldn’t stand life without him. It was hard enough to keep going even with him. He didn’t know about the scars on my wrists, I never showed anyone. He held me and I felt warm and safe. I drifted off in his arms.
I awoke in the morning still clutched in Ashley’s arms. I hugged him and kissed him gently before getting out of bed. I got dressed and went to eat breakfast. I opened the fridge. I realized there was hardly any food so I made coffee and went outside for some fresh air. The air was cool and there was a breeze. I ran my fingers over my wrists. I wished I had someone there for me. Even Ash wasn’t enough. I loved him; I just needed another person, something more. Why am I here? I asked myself. I’m just a waste of space. I made up my mind to kill myself soon. That’s where I belong, six feet underground with no one there with me. All alone.
Ash might miss me. I went inside and found a piece of paper. I began to write.
I’m sorry I had to go this way. I’ll miss u Ash. I hope u don’t miss me too much because I want u to stay strong without me. It’s not your fault, I promise, u didn’t see the signs so I must have hid it well. I don’t care what happens when I’m gone, just be happy. It’ll get better soon, just wait. Don’t forget me please. I will watch u and keep u veilig if I can. I would have told u but I was afraid. I know it’s silly. You’ll make it without me, just cry whenever u need to, u can be with whoever u want now. I had a good last few days with you. I’m happier than I’ve ever been. I’ll kiss u before I go. I love you.
Dude, this is scary! Let me tell u want happened.
I was walking up some stairs at school (we have alot of stairs) and a guy, a student I don't know is screaming at me,
"HEY!"
As I normally do, I replied "Hi." Now here is the disturbing part. He zei (and still yelling),
"CAN I MESSAGE YOUR TOES?"
I was shocked. A stranger wants to touch my toes! So I zei "No" and he did a "Darn"
Then he told all his vrienden that I'm was his girlfriend. I was scared! It was soooo random. He asked me if the was true of not so he can prove it. Awkwardly, I answered "Yea......." THEN, then he did this really weird dance. He skipped and clapped at the same time. His vrienden were laughing and he called me "Sweetheart"
I thought I may want to share
I was walking up some stairs at school (we have alot of stairs) and a guy, a student I don't know is screaming at me,
"HEY!"
As I normally do, I replied "Hi." Now here is the disturbing part. He zei (and still yelling),
"CAN I MESSAGE YOUR TOES?"
I was shocked. A stranger wants to touch my toes! So I zei "No" and he did a "Darn"
Then he told all his vrienden that I'm was his girlfriend. I was scared! It was soooo random. He asked me if the was true of not so he can prove it. Awkwardly, I answered "Yea......." THEN, then he did this really weird dance. He skipped and clapped at the same time. His vrienden were laughing and he called me "Sweetheart"
I thought I may want to share
1. Empath. An empath is someone who can sense the emotions of others. They tend to feel drained after being an a crowd.
2. Shaman. Shamans can heal people and feel comfortable on nature. They sometimes feel protected door wild places, such as a forest.
3. Medium. Mediums can speak to the dead. They can sense the presense of a spirit and some have been visited door one.
4. Channeler. Someone who can act as a channel for a spirit of other otherworldly being.
5. Clair. There are a few different types of clairs, but all it means is that u have a very strong sense of something. For example, someone who is clairvoyant can see things miles away.
6. Telepath. Someone who can comunicate mind-to-mind with someone.
7. Dowsers of water witches. Someone who can locate water of lost object with a rod of wand.
8. Aura readers. Aura readers can see of sense aura, of energy.
9. Animal telepath. Someone who can communicate with animals.
10. Astral projector. Someone who can leave their body.
2. Shaman. Shamans can heal people and feel comfortable on nature. They sometimes feel protected door wild places, such as a forest.
3. Medium. Mediums can speak to the dead. They can sense the presense of a spirit and some have been visited door one.
4. Channeler. Someone who can act as a channel for a spirit of other otherworldly being.
5. Clair. There are a few different types of clairs, but all it means is that u have a very strong sense of something. For example, someone who is clairvoyant can see things miles away.
6. Telepath. Someone who can comunicate mind-to-mind with someone.
7. Dowsers of water witches. Someone who can locate water of lost object with a rod of wand.
8. Aura readers. Aura readers can see of sense aura, of energy.
9. Animal telepath. Someone who can communicate with animals.
10. Astral projector. Someone who can leave their body.
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Stephanie
I ran into the bathroom. Dominic and Spencer were in the bright roze doorway.
Belinda was on the floor. Scarlet was watching Spencer. Spencer was crying. Wait. Spencer was crying. Wow. I think he's sick. Spencer's always smiling stupidly and talking about stupid things in a stupid voice. Not crying. Spencer has never cried. I'm his sister so I would know. I walked over. Spencer was hugging Dominic. My face flushed with anger. Spencer was my brother, not Dominic's.
"Spencer," I said. "She's gonna like you."
Spencer wiped away a tear. I got him a tissue and splashed water on his face. He was going to get detention. Oh well. He doesn't care anyway.
Stephanie
I ran into the bathroom. Dominic and Spencer were in the bright roze doorway.
Belinda was on the floor. Scarlet was watching Spencer. Spencer was crying. Wait. Spencer was crying. Wow. I think he's sick. Spencer's always smiling stupidly and talking about stupid things in a stupid voice. Not crying. Spencer has never cried. I'm his sister so I would know. I walked over. Spencer was hugging Dominic. My face flushed with anger. Spencer was my brother, not Dominic's.
"Spencer," I said. "She's gonna like you."
Spencer wiped away a tear. I got him a tissue and splashed water on his face. He was going to get detention. Oh well. He doesn't care anyway.
At the end of series 3, u never really find out what happens to Zuko's Mom, do you? well, I've got an idea, check this out:
Ozai wanted to be firelord, but Azulon wouldn't let him be volgende in line, yadda yadda yadda, Iroh and Lu Ten, yadda yadda yadda, Ozai has to kill his first born son. But Ursa didn't like that so she planned a plan so that Ozai would be firelord and Zuko would live, but then Ursa was banished and I THINK that Ozai killed Azulon but who knows. So, Ursa is banished, and I don't really know where she's gone....but remember when Aang was in the spirit world and he had to talk to "The Face Stealer" (Can't remember the name-sorry) and he changes his face, Right? Well u know that face of a girl with long dark hair? Doen't she look alot like Ursa? If u don't think so just have a look at how different Azula looked when she was crazy and cut her hair.
Think about it...I could be right!
So she got trapped in the spirit world
Ozai wanted to be firelord, but Azulon wouldn't let him be volgende in line, yadda yadda yadda, Iroh and Lu Ten, yadda yadda yadda, Ozai has to kill his first born son. But Ursa didn't like that so she planned a plan so that Ozai would be firelord and Zuko would live, but then Ursa was banished and I THINK that Ozai killed Azulon but who knows. So, Ursa is banished, and I don't really know where she's gone....but remember when Aang was in the spirit world and he had to talk to "The Face Stealer" (Can't remember the name-sorry) and he changes his face, Right? Well u know that face of a girl with long dark hair? Doen't she look alot like Ursa? If u don't think so just have a look at how different Azula looked when she was crazy and cut her hair.
Think about it...I could be right!
So she got trapped in the spirit world
