I wait...

for 2 years long to reach my happiness, an unaswered vraag has been solved out door the miracle of its own.

I never feel so happy unlike when I was 12-13 years old, those number is a crack of my flaw and the sorrow of my life but in return...
I always got stabbed in the back door those foolish mortals.

Those things were all just my past, those hurtful memories begun to fade away from my scene but the scar on my hart-, hart still marked its pain.
When will it heal for sure? when will this agony vanish forever?

well the answer was this,

meer pain I got when I broke my eyes, unfortunately it has happened when exactly in a dag of my brithday so...I went to check up to get a sight glasses.

That sight glasses was my special gift when I turned 14 this jaar (2010) u wanna know why it's special? because it's brought me into a new life, I don't care...and I'm not worry for my new look wearing that sight glasses, they actually fit my face.

What a coincident when I turned 14 and wearing a sight glasses all my life is turning upside down from a cloudy sorrow into a bright sunny one, my behaviour/attitude also change as much!
I was a shy, too polite and a calm girl who'd always let herself hurt, torture, and stab only for some b*tchy vrienden and now not anymore...

It's not that hard to say "NO" to someone even to the closest person I have (except if they helped me so much) so why should I care about if they return me the same "NO" when I need their helps?

I can stand my own opinion now and I can stand up for myself as possible as I could :)
Since that happened, now I have lots of vrienden who actually care about me too but some of them are solidarity and one of them is trustworthy of I could say a BESTFRIEND.

I guess this year's birthday was worth it at all! from tears to joy I'm absolutely enjoy the result indeed.

don't blame the world if its already happen, don't ignore miracle even you've never seen one, don't let your circumstances make u fall and tare apart, flaws are just one weakness that we can cover it with our self advance, make yourself feel open in free to let them know WHO u ARE.

*true story of a life miracle door me {xSiVePux/AviTaRi}