*by Stephenie Meyer*
TWILIGHT - chapter 14 - MIND OVER MATTER
A long minuut passed. I listened, not sure if I'd heard the door close. Then Edward's cool arm was around me, under the covers, his lips at my ear.
"You are a terrible actress - I'd say that career path is out for you."
"Darn it," I muttered. My hart-, hart was crashing in my chest.
He hummed a melody I didn't recognize; it sounded like a lullaby.
He paused. "Should I sing u to sleep?"
"Right," I laughed. "Like I could sleep with u here!"
"You do it all the time," he reminded me.
"But I didn't know u were here," I replied icily.
"So if u don't want to sleep...," he suggested, ignoring my tone. My breath caught.
"If I don't want to sleep...?"
He chuckled. "What do u want to do then?"
I couldn't answer at first.
"I'm not sure," I finally said.
"Tell me when u decide."
I could feel his cool breath on my neck, feel his nose sliding along my jaw, inhaling.
"I thought u were desensitized."
"Just because I'm resisting the wine doesn't mean I can't appreciate the bouquet," he whispered. "You have a very floral smell, like lavender... of feesia," he noted. "It's mouthwatering."
"Yeah, it's an off dag when I don't get somebody telling me how edible I smell."
He chuckled, and then sighed.
"I've decided what I want to do," I told him. "I want to hear meer about you."
"Ask me anything."
I sifted through my vragen for the most vital. "Why do u do it?" I said. "I still don't understand how u can work so hard to resist what you... are. Please don't misunderstand, of course I'm glad that u do. I just don't see why u would bother in the first place."
He hesitated before answering. "That's a good question, and u are not the first to ask it. The others - the majority of our kind who are quite content with our lot - they, too, wonder at how we live. But u see, just because we've been... delt a certain hand... it doesn't mean that we can't choose to rise above - to conquer the boundaries of a destiny that none of us wanted. To try to retain whatever essential humanity we can."
I lay unmoving, locked in awed silence.
"Did u fall asleep?" he whispered after a few minutes.
"No."
"Is that all u were curious about?"
I rolled my eyes. "Not quite."
"What else do u want to know?"
"Why can u read minds - why only you? And Alice, seeing the future... why does that happen?"
I felt him shrug in the darkness. "We don't really know. Carlisle has a theory... he believes that we all bring something of our strongest human traits with us into the volgende life, where they are intensified - like our minds, and our senses. He thinks that I must have already been very sensitive to the thoughts of those around me. And that Alice had some precognition, wherever she was."
"What did he bring into the volgende life, and the others?"
"Carlisle brought his compassion. Esme brought her ability to love passionately. Emmett brought his strength, Rosalie her... tenacity. of u could call it pigheadedness," he chuckled. "Jasper is very interesting. He was quite charismatic in his first life, able to influence those around him to see things his way. Now he is able to manipulate the emotions of those around him - calm down a room of angry people, for example, of excite a lethargic crowd, conversely. It's a very subtle gift."
I considered the impossibilities he described, trying to take it in. He waited patiently while I thought.
"So where did it all start? I means, Carlisle changed you, and then someone must have changed him, and so on...."
"Well, where did u come from? Evolution? Creation? Couldn't we have evolved in the same way as other species, predator and prey? Or, if u don't believe that all this world could have just happened on its own, which is hard for me to accept myself, is it so hard to believe that the same force that created the delicate angelfish with the shark, the baby zeehond, seal and the killer whale, could create both our kinds together?"
"Let me get this straight - I'm the baby seal, right?"
"Right." He laughed, and something touched my hair - his lips?
I wanted to turn toward him, to see if it was really his lips against my hair. But I had to be good; I didn't want to make this any harder for him than it already was.
"Are u ready to sleep?" he asked, interrupting the short silence. "Or do u have any meer questions?"
"Only a million of two."
"We have tomorrow, and the volgende day, and the next...," he reminded me. I smiled, ephoric at the thought.
"Are u sure u won't vanish in the morning?" I wanted this to be certain. "You are mythical, after all."
"I won't leave you." His voice had the zeehond, seal of a promise.
"One more, then, tonight..." And I blushed. The darkness was no help - I'm sure he could feel the sudden warmth under my skin.
"What is it?"
"No, forget it. I changed my mind."
"Bella, u can ask me anything."
I didn't answer, and he groaned.
"I keep thinking it will get less frustrating, not hearing your thoughts. But it just gets worse and worse."
"I'm glad u can't read my thoughts. It's bad anough that u eavesdrop on my sleep-talking."
"Please?" His voice was so persuasive, so impossible to resist.
I shook my head.
"If u don't tell me, I'll just asume it's something much worse than it is," he threatened darkly. "Please?" Again, that pleading voice.
"Well," I began, glad that he couldn't see my face.
"Yes?"
"You zei that Rosalie and Emmett will get married soon.... Is that... marriage... the same as it is for humans?"
He laughed in earnest now, understanding. "Is that what u were getting at?"
I fidgeted, unable to answer.
"Yes, I suppose it is much the same," he said. "I told you, most of those human desires are there, just hidden behind meer powerful desires."
"Oh, was all I could say.
"Was there a purpose behind your curiosity?"
"Well, I did wonder... about u and me... someday..."
He was instantly serious, I could tell door the sudden stillness of his body. I froze, too, reacting automatically.
"I don't think that... that... would be possible for us."
"Because it would be too hard for you, if I were that... close?"
"That's certainly a problem. But that's not what I was thinking of. It's just that u are so soft, so fragile. I have to mind my actions every moment that we're together so that I don't hurt you. I could kill u quite easily, Bella, simply door accident." His voice had become just a soft murmur. He moved his icy palm to rest it on my cheek. "If I was too hasty... if u one seconde I wasn't paying enough attention, I could reach out, meaning to touch your face, and crush your skull door mistake. u don't realize how incredibly breakable u are. I can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when I'm with you."
He waited for me to respond, growing anxious when I didn't. "Are u scared?" he asked.
I waited for a minuut to answer, so the words would be true. "No. I'm fine."
He seemed to deliberate for a moment. "I'm curious now, though," he sais, his voice light again. "Have you ever...?" He trailed off suggestively.
"Of course not." I flushed. "I told u I've never felt like this about anyone before, not even close."
"I know. It's just that I know other people's thoughts. I know love and lust don't always keep the same company."
"They do for me. Now, anyway, that they exist for me at all," I sighed.
"That's nice. We have one thing in common, at least." He sounded satisfied.
"Your human instincts...," I began. He waited. "Well, do u find me attractive, in that way, at all?"
He laughed and lightly rumpled my nearly dry hair.
"I may not be a human, but I am a man," he assured me.
I yawned involuntarily.
"I've answered your questions, now u should sleep." he insisted.
"I'm not sure if I can."
"Do u want me to leave?"
"No!" I zei too loudly.
He laughed, and then began to hum that same, unfamiliar lullaby; the voice of an archangel, soft in my ear.
meer tired than I realized, exhausted from the long dag of mental and emotional stress like I'd never felt before, I drifted to sleep in his cold arms.
TWILIGHT - chapter 14 - MIND OVER MATTER
A long minuut passed. I listened, not sure if I'd heard the door close. Then Edward's cool arm was around me, under the covers, his lips at my ear.
"You are a terrible actress - I'd say that career path is out for you."
"Darn it," I muttered. My hart-, hart was crashing in my chest.
He hummed a melody I didn't recognize; it sounded like a lullaby.
He paused. "Should I sing u to sleep?"
"Right," I laughed. "Like I could sleep with u here!"
"You do it all the time," he reminded me.
"But I didn't know u were here," I replied icily.
"So if u don't want to sleep...," he suggested, ignoring my tone. My breath caught.
"If I don't want to sleep...?"
He chuckled. "What do u want to do then?"
I couldn't answer at first.
"I'm not sure," I finally said.
"Tell me when u decide."
I could feel his cool breath on my neck, feel his nose sliding along my jaw, inhaling.
"I thought u were desensitized."
"Just because I'm resisting the wine doesn't mean I can't appreciate the bouquet," he whispered. "You have a very floral smell, like lavender... of feesia," he noted. "It's mouthwatering."
"Yeah, it's an off dag when I don't get somebody telling me how edible I smell."
He chuckled, and then sighed.
"I've decided what I want to do," I told him. "I want to hear meer about you."
"Ask me anything."
I sifted through my vragen for the most vital. "Why do u do it?" I said. "I still don't understand how u can work so hard to resist what you... are. Please don't misunderstand, of course I'm glad that u do. I just don't see why u would bother in the first place."
He hesitated before answering. "That's a good question, and u are not the first to ask it. The others - the majority of our kind who are quite content with our lot - they, too, wonder at how we live. But u see, just because we've been... delt a certain hand... it doesn't mean that we can't choose to rise above - to conquer the boundaries of a destiny that none of us wanted. To try to retain whatever essential humanity we can."
I lay unmoving, locked in awed silence.
"Did u fall asleep?" he whispered after a few minutes.
"No."
"Is that all u were curious about?"
I rolled my eyes. "Not quite."
"What else do u want to know?"
"Why can u read minds - why only you? And Alice, seeing the future... why does that happen?"
I felt him shrug in the darkness. "We don't really know. Carlisle has a theory... he believes that we all bring something of our strongest human traits with us into the volgende life, where they are intensified - like our minds, and our senses. He thinks that I must have already been very sensitive to the thoughts of those around me. And that Alice had some precognition, wherever she was."
"What did he bring into the volgende life, and the others?"
"Carlisle brought his compassion. Esme brought her ability to love passionately. Emmett brought his strength, Rosalie her... tenacity. of u could call it pigheadedness," he chuckled. "Jasper is very interesting. He was quite charismatic in his first life, able to influence those around him to see things his way. Now he is able to manipulate the emotions of those around him - calm down a room of angry people, for example, of excite a lethargic crowd, conversely. It's a very subtle gift."
I considered the impossibilities he described, trying to take it in. He waited patiently while I thought.
"So where did it all start? I means, Carlisle changed you, and then someone must have changed him, and so on...."
"Well, where did u come from? Evolution? Creation? Couldn't we have evolved in the same way as other species, predator and prey? Or, if u don't believe that all this world could have just happened on its own, which is hard for me to accept myself, is it so hard to believe that the same force that created the delicate angelfish with the shark, the baby zeehond, seal and the killer whale, could create both our kinds together?"
"Let me get this straight - I'm the baby seal, right?"
"Right." He laughed, and something touched my hair - his lips?
I wanted to turn toward him, to see if it was really his lips against my hair. But I had to be good; I didn't want to make this any harder for him than it already was.
"Are u ready to sleep?" he asked, interrupting the short silence. "Or do u have any meer questions?"
"Only a million of two."
"We have tomorrow, and the volgende day, and the next...," he reminded me. I smiled, ephoric at the thought.
"Are u sure u won't vanish in the morning?" I wanted this to be certain. "You are mythical, after all."
"I won't leave you." His voice had the zeehond, seal of a promise.
"One more, then, tonight..." And I blushed. The darkness was no help - I'm sure he could feel the sudden warmth under my skin.
"What is it?"
"No, forget it. I changed my mind."
"Bella, u can ask me anything."
I didn't answer, and he groaned.
"I keep thinking it will get less frustrating, not hearing your thoughts. But it just gets worse and worse."
"I'm glad u can't read my thoughts. It's bad anough that u eavesdrop on my sleep-talking."
"Please?" His voice was so persuasive, so impossible to resist.
I shook my head.
"If u don't tell me, I'll just asume it's something much worse than it is," he threatened darkly. "Please?" Again, that pleading voice.
"Well," I began, glad that he couldn't see my face.
"Yes?"
"You zei that Rosalie and Emmett will get married soon.... Is that... marriage... the same as it is for humans?"
He laughed in earnest now, understanding. "Is that what u were getting at?"
I fidgeted, unable to answer.
"Yes, I suppose it is much the same," he said. "I told you, most of those human desires are there, just hidden behind meer powerful desires."
"Oh, was all I could say.
"Was there a purpose behind your curiosity?"
"Well, I did wonder... about u and me... someday..."
He was instantly serious, I could tell door the sudden stillness of his body. I froze, too, reacting automatically.
"I don't think that... that... would be possible for us."
"Because it would be too hard for you, if I were that... close?"
"That's certainly a problem. But that's not what I was thinking of. It's just that u are so soft, so fragile. I have to mind my actions every moment that we're together so that I don't hurt you. I could kill u quite easily, Bella, simply door accident." His voice had become just a soft murmur. He moved his icy palm to rest it on my cheek. "If I was too hasty... if u one seconde I wasn't paying enough attention, I could reach out, meaning to touch your face, and crush your skull door mistake. u don't realize how incredibly breakable u are. I can never, never afford to lose any kind of control when I'm with you."
He waited for me to respond, growing anxious when I didn't. "Are u scared?" he asked.
I waited for a minuut to answer, so the words would be true. "No. I'm fine."
He seemed to deliberate for a moment. "I'm curious now, though," he sais, his voice light again. "Have you ever...?" He trailed off suggestively.
"Of course not." I flushed. "I told u I've never felt like this about anyone before, not even close."
"I know. It's just that I know other people's thoughts. I know love and lust don't always keep the same company."
"They do for me. Now, anyway, that they exist for me at all," I sighed.
"That's nice. We have one thing in common, at least." He sounded satisfied.
"Your human instincts...," I began. He waited. "Well, do u find me attractive, in that way, at all?"
He laughed and lightly rumpled my nearly dry hair.
"I may not be a human, but I am a man," he assured me.
I yawned involuntarily.
"I've answered your questions, now u should sleep." he insisted.
"I'm not sure if I can."
"Do u want me to leave?"
"No!" I zei too loudly.
He laughed, and then began to hum that same, unfamiliar lullaby; the voice of an archangel, soft in my ear.
meer tired than I realized, exhausted from the long dag of mental and emotional stress like I'd never felt before, I drifted to sleep in his cold arms.
So, the past week had been filled with Twilight pictures. Everyday we got at least 2 amazing pictures. Well, now that the Twilight Illistrated Movie Companion is out, there are scans of pictures from the movie in the book on the internet.
And someone from LiveJournal really caught my eye... in a bad way. This particular person is saying stuff like "**** Summit" of "**** Twilight Illustrated Movie Companion". What I don't get is... Why do they choose to look at the pictures?! The person who geplaatst these pictures warned that they would be spoilers, and announced not click the link if they didn't want to see them.
Those who want to be surprised door the movie, that's fine. But they shouldn't go around cussin Summit of Stephenie Meyer of any other fansite because they chose to view them.
And someone from LiveJournal really caught my eye... in a bad way. This particular person is saying stuff like "**** Summit" of "**** Twilight Illustrated Movie Companion". What I don't get is... Why do they choose to look at the pictures?! The person who geplaatst these pictures warned that they would be spoilers, and announced not click the link if they didn't want to see them.
Those who want to be surprised door the movie, that's fine. But they shouldn't go around cussin Summit of Stephenie Meyer of any other fansite because they chose to view them.
I am sure u already read Stephenie's message on her website about Midnight Sun being halted indefinately.
Some petitions have already been started on link to toon Stephenie our support and to agree to not violate her right to privacy door reading the illegal material.
I know it takes some time, but be sure to sign all of them, toon your love! Here are a few linken to the petitions:
link
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link
link
link
I know we can make a difference!
xoxo
Some petitions have already been started on link to toon Stephenie our support and to agree to not violate her right to privacy door reading the illegal material.
I know it takes some time, but be sure to sign all of them, toon your love! Here are a few linken to the petitions:
link
link
link
link
link
I know we can make a difference!
xoxo
Hey! Do u guys know a good twilight fan site? Help us all out and tell us... so we can go on!
Heres the cool site I found: www.freewebs.com/twilighttrailer
I think that u all know of stephenie's website..... stepheniemeyer.com
Oh! Also- If anyones knows of a good site to see interviews of meer trailer... Tell Me!
Speaking of stephenie's website... did any of u see the "quote of the day" thing she's doing!? I LOVE that idea! what do u guys think? I like the idea.. and I just cant wait to read Breaking Dawn! The movie should be good too :)
Heres the cool site I found: www.freewebs.com/twilighttrailer
I think that u all know of stephenie's website..... stepheniemeyer.com
Oh! Also- If anyones knows of a good site to see interviews of meer trailer... Tell Me!
Speaking of stephenie's website... did any of u see the "quote of the day" thing she's doing!? I LOVE that idea! what do u guys think? I like the idea.. and I just cant wait to read Breaking Dawn! The movie should be good too :)
There are people that kruis our lives
in tiny fractions of time,
in the briefest of encounters,
and yet they leave and incredible mark
in our hearts and in our minds forever.
"Each time a person stands up for an ideal, of acts to improve the lot of others, of strikes out against injustice, that person sends out a tiny ripple of ove and hope, and crossing each other fro a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current that can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppresion and resistance."
Now these poems were written door some one else, but deseved to be shared and they kind of have something in commen with the series.
in tiny fractions of time,
in the briefest of encounters,
and yet they leave and incredible mark
in our hearts and in our minds forever.
"Each time a person stands up for an ideal, of acts to improve the lot of others, of strikes out against injustice, that person sends out a tiny ripple of ove and hope, and crossing each other fro a million different centers of energy and daring, those ripples build a current that can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppresion and resistance."
Now these poems were written door some one else, but deseved to be shared and they kind of have something in commen with the series.
10. IDEALS
9. SUPERNATURAL POWERS
8. THE BODY GUARD
7. SIMPLY IRRESISTIBLE
6. MR. DARCY DOUBLE
5. BAD BOY
4. SELF-CONTROL
3. ANGEL IN DISGUISE
2. AMAZING EYES
1. SELF-LESS
Twilight, the first novel as part of the Twilight series door Stephanie Meyer is excruciatingly addictive as it is ubiquitous – there’s always someone buried head deep into a Twilight book either on the train, bus, strand of at the park.
Whilst the latest of the series Eclipse is now heading for our cinemas, lets go back to the first of the series Twilight to see where all the madness began. Sorry to all the Jacob Black fans out there!
(Warning: If u haven’t read Twilight there are numerous plot giveaways in this blog)
From: link
9. SUPERNATURAL POWERS
8. THE BODY GUARD
7. SIMPLY IRRESISTIBLE
6. MR. DARCY DOUBLE
5. BAD BOY
4. SELF-CONTROL
3. ANGEL IN DISGUISE
2. AMAZING EYES
1. SELF-LESS
Twilight, the first novel as part of the Twilight series door Stephanie Meyer is excruciatingly addictive as it is ubiquitous – there’s always someone buried head deep into a Twilight book either on the train, bus, strand of at the park.
Whilst the latest of the series Eclipse is now heading for our cinemas, lets go back to the first of the series Twilight to see where all the madness began. Sorry to all the Jacob Black fans out there!
(Warning: If u haven’t read Twilight there are numerous plot giveaways in this blog)
From: link