I was still in his tight embrace. I never noticed how warm he was. Well maybe because I have never really hugged him like this before. I was just happy to have him back.
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this of not.
Granted, I did say that I do love him like love him, love him, but at the same time I love him as my best friend and right now....I think i love him meer as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off door it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to u Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship of just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure of anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker u will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I love him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do u want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I love you. I have always loved you. u know that. u are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether u stay my best friend of be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken door surprise door the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful angel face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being meer than your best friend." I topped that off with big puppy eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my hart-, hart first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I zei these words. The seconde was the amazing kiss he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best kiss yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If u are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support u in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every minuut with him. He took me home pagina and gave me a light kiss before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do love him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
"Mmmmm. I missed you." I heard him whisper in my ear.
"Mmmm...No I'm pretty sure I missed you." I manged to whisper back. It felt a little weird saying that too him. I didn't want to be all rude and not say it back, but I just.. I still haven't decided whether I actually wanna go through with this of not.
Granted, I did say that I do love him like love him, love him, but at the same time I love him as my best friend and right now....I think i love him meer as a best friend. I just don't know.
He set me down and gently moved a hair from my face. I could tell that he was gonna go in for the kiss, but I quickly stopped him.
"We need to talk." I tried to not make it too harsh but at the same serious enough for him to stop. But, he was a little turned off door it.
"Whats up Jaz.?" He sounded like the old Matthew. That was a little of a relief because I didn't know how to talk to this new, sweet Matthew.
"Okay. Well.....What exactly is gonna happen between...'us'?" The word "us" just seemed weird to me. he knew exactly what I meant. I could tell he was about to say something but he let it go.
"Well...after the pass few days....It's up to u Jaz." I hated that reply because that wasn't an answer! Now I was either can gonna start this whole new relationship of just completely nip it in the bud. No pressure of anything. I did want to be with him. I'm also the biggest non-risk taker u will ever meet. So...I just don't know. I love him as my best friend and I am scared of losing him as my best friend if for some reason we don't work out as a couple. Uhhh, come on Jaz.
"Ummm...What do u want?"
I saw him try to think of how to say what he wanted to say.
"Jaz, I love you. I have always loved you. u know that. u are my best friend and it would not matter to me whether u stay my best friend of be the girl I marry."
I was kinda taken door surprise door the whole marriage thing.The person you're going to spend the rest of your life with was a pretty big deal. But either way, I knew what I wanted to do. I put my arms around his neck and looked up at his beautiful angel face.
"The marriage thing is a little far fetched but,...I would not mind being meer than your best friend." I topped that off with big puppy eyes and a flirty grin.
What stop my hart-, hart first was the glitter in his beautiful brown eyes as I zei these words. The seconde was the amazing kiss he gave me afterwords. For the first time in the whole weekend I felt the spark in the kiss, that longing to want more, To not want to push away. It was the best kiss yet.
"Yummm." He giggled at me as I took a bite of my burger. Usually I was never wrong about things but Burger Boy burgers being better than Burger King burgers was defiantly something I waved my white flag to.
If u are wondering, yes he did take me out. To most girls a burger joint wouldn't exactly be the guy who would support u in the end but to me and Matthew, a burger joint was just as good as any other place in the world. It was kinda cute how we sat in one of those booth things and he put his arm around me. We did that cheesy thing and drank one shake out of two straws. It was a pretty good night. I loved every minuut with him. He took me home pagina and gave me a light kiss before I walked inside. Overall, I can say I do love him and I'm happy i finally took a risk. Lets just hope it last.
Alone!
There once was a girl who biked and ran
with her best friend who had a bright oranje tan
But then one dag she when biking alone
and thats when she fell along way from home.
She lay still on the ground
not makeing a sound,and thats when she found
that she could not talk
let alone walk
As she slowly made her way home
she wished that she had a phone
so she could call for help
insted of put up with the pain that made her yelp.
She pushed her bike down the dusty track
with a sore haed and an acking back
Then she came to the place where her and her best friend met
just as the sun was begining to set
The volgende dag at school she was no where in sight
which gave her best frined a very big fright
but she was a home pagina tucked up in bed
with a sore leg and an acking head
Thats when she remebered what her best friend had zei
about not going out bikeing alone
along way from home.
What do u think?(I think it is very bad) and sorry of the spelling.
There once was a girl who biked and ran
with her best friend who had a bright oranje tan
But then one dag she when biking alone
and thats when she fell along way from home.
She lay still on the ground
not makeing a sound,and thats when she found
that she could not talk
let alone walk
As she slowly made her way home
she wished that she had a phone
so she could call for help
insted of put up with the pain that made her yelp.
She pushed her bike down the dusty track
with a sore haed and an acking back
Then she came to the place where her and her best friend met
just as the sun was begining to set
The volgende dag at school she was no where in sight
which gave her best frined a very big fright
but she was a home pagina tucked up in bed
with a sore leg and an acking head
Thats when she remebered what her best friend had zei
about not going out bikeing alone
along way from home.
What do u think?(I think it is very bad) and sorry of the spelling.
You
It's the middle of the night,
And I can't sleep
Your face, planted with a smile
Are the only things I see
Your voice calling my name
Is the only thing I hear
I can feel your hand rubbing my back
Hearing u whisper ''good night''
I jump and look around,
And soon realize u are not there
I sob, tightly holding the gift u once gave me
It's right here, on my bed, in perfect condition.
30 minuten later, I wipe my face and go back to sleep…
I wake up once again
And the cycle starts all over again…
It's the middle of the night,
And I can't sleep
Your face, planted with a smile
Are the only things I see
Your voice calling my name
Is the only thing I hear
I can feel your hand rubbing my back
Hearing u whisper ''good night''
I jump and look around,
And soon realize u are not there
I sob, tightly holding the gift u once gave me
It's right here, on my bed, in perfect condition.
30 minuten later, I wipe my face and go back to sleep…
I wake up once again
And the cycle starts all over again…
your mistakes don't define you, now. they don't tell u who you're not, of who u can never be. what's it take to get u to say you'll try? you've got to live this life like it's the only one you've got. what would u say, what would u do, if this was your last day? so, u found out today that life's not the same. not quite as good as yesterday.
and, yes, i know it hurts & i know your pain, but u never gave up this easily befor. such a beautiful thing to just throw away. i think u need to know that, of all the colors that u shine, this is surely not your best, it's really not your style. u should think about what u do, befor u do it, over and over again. i know u feel alone, that know one can figure u out, but u sould know that we just love to see u smile.i know u feel like you're lost, feel like you've drifted way to far away, but we can help u come back.
and, yes, i know it hurts & i know your pain, but u never gave up this easily befor. such a beautiful thing to just throw away. i think u need to know that, of all the colors that u shine, this is surely not your best, it's really not your style. u should think about what u do, befor u do it, over and over again. i know u feel alone, that know one can figure u out, but u sould know that we just love to see u smile.i know u feel like you're lost, feel like you've drifted way to far away, but we can help u come back.
I wrote this yesterday when me and my boyfriend had a big fight and it's a fight that may go on for a long time. I know I am young to write something like this but, I guess it helps. Plus If u don't like it just tell me, ok?
The Power of Words
u and I had this big long fight,
It felt like the storm during the night.
It was verry sad and cold,
My vrienden had to like u a lot
and u felt like I forgot,
forgot about you.
But I had a prodject due.
u think you're mr. I'm so cool
but u used to act like a ghool.
Not to the people u love,
to the sensetive people like a dove.
How we spoke with eachother,
made u feel much better.
But the fight we had,
u zei was nothing but it was bad.
See ya pal we're ova,
take the cell u gave me and do me a fava.
Just don't ever,
Never...
Talk to me again!
The Power of Words
u and I had this big long fight,
It felt like the storm during the night.
It was verry sad and cold,
My vrienden had to like u a lot
and u felt like I forgot,
forgot about you.
But I had a prodject due.
u think you're mr. I'm so cool
but u used to act like a ghool.
Not to the people u love,
to the sensetive people like a dove.
How we spoke with eachother,
made u feel much better.
But the fight we had,
u zei was nothing but it was bad.
See ya pal we're ova,
take the cell u gave me and do me a fava.
Just don't ever,
Never...
Talk to me again!