The time seemed to go door too fast that night. I stared at the ceiling. My mind so blank, yet so complex with thoughts. I knew that I just wasn't ready for this. Abortion isn't even a option though. It doesn't matter whether u drown your baby in the bathtub of nip him the butt, murder is murder. Omg! What if I end up a cray mother like that?
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will love and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the universiteit of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will love and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the universiteit of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
I am bored with love
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity
Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two door fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone
Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed our bodies to become another pair of hollow shadows that make love to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the roses are dying
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity
Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two door fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone
Poetic vows cliched
into nothingness
like all words do, eventually
and we allowed our bodies to become another pair of hollow shadows that make love to a wall
instead of each other
and we wonder why
the roses are dying
blood fills the faces of my fantasies
no mercy,you're trying to put me down
i can see clearly as you're taking a schommel, swing at me
come and i'll push u to the ground
what are u doing? what do u think this is doing to me?
you're taking all my faith
what are u leaving me now?!
i will make u suffer just like u made me suffer
i will watch u screaming and begging for forgiveness
all my hate can not be bound
i will not be bound door your darkest demons
so try to take my life and put me to the ground
i will follow u and torture u and i'll watch u screaming
look at the bloody faces smiling at you,taking u down and making u drown
i wanna kill u the same way u killed me
leaving me thoughtless
u can try to tell me that i'm worthless
but u can not break me down
gonna take u down because nothing in this world is going to save me
no mercy,you're trying to put me down
i can see clearly as you're taking a schommel, swing at me
come and i'll push u to the ground
what are u doing? what do u think this is doing to me?
you're taking all my faith
what are u leaving me now?!
i will make u suffer just like u made me suffer
i will watch u screaming and begging for forgiveness
all my hate can not be bound
i will not be bound door your darkest demons
so try to take my life and put me to the ground
i will follow u and torture u and i'll watch u screaming
look at the bloody faces smiling at you,taking u down and making u drown
i wanna kill u the same way u killed me
leaving me thoughtless
u can try to tell me that i'm worthless
but u can not break me down
gonna take u down because nothing in this world is going to save me
Once upon a time There was a girl named Abby. She loved to talk. Her teachers eventually stopped calling on her.
One day, she talked during a brand while a kid in her class was telling her teacher where the 17 other children were.
The teacher couldn't here her, and the zoek for the children lasted twelve hours. During that time, a gang stal five computers, three cars, seventeen dogs, and blackmailed the mayor into giving them seven grand.
Abby was expelled from the school.
When she told her parents, they imediately looked for a school for her to go to.
But the only school that gave her acceptence was the class in the juvinille deliquent center.
So she was home pagina schooled.
But she caused her parents so much trouble that in a week they lost their all hair and were standing on the thin line between sanity and the nut house.
So they duct-taped her mouth shut.
THE END
One day, she talked during a brand while a kid in her class was telling her teacher where the 17 other children were.
The teacher couldn't here her, and the zoek for the children lasted twelve hours. During that time, a gang stal five computers, three cars, seventeen dogs, and blackmailed the mayor into giving them seven grand.
Abby was expelled from the school.
When she told her parents, they imediately looked for a school for her to go to.
But the only school that gave her acceptence was the class in the juvinille deliquent center.
So she was home pagina schooled.
But she caused her parents so much trouble that in a week they lost their all hair and were standing on the thin line between sanity and the nut house.
So they duct-taped her mouth shut.
THE END
love bites
this is just somthing that describes me :)
For the first couple months, that's what it really feels like; darkness, always there like the puppy you always wished for to follow you around.
