The time seemed to go door too fast that night. I stared at the ceiling. My mind so blank, yet so complex with thoughts. I knew that I just wasn't ready for this. Abortion isn't even a option though. It doesn't matter whether u drown your baby in the bathtub of nip him the butt, murder is murder. Omg! What if I end up a cray mother like that?
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will love and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the universiteit of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
I shook my head furiously. No, that won't be me. I will love and take care of my child. How exactly I'm going to do that I'm not sure. I'm too much a chicken to tell Emet. I would completely ruin his future. That boy has his college fund in the bag. He is so smart and amazing at sports. Imagine if he were to throw all that away to work at McDonald's and support me and this "thing". I just can't do that to him.
What about me? I'm advanced in all my classes and I've been dreaming of the universiteit of Texas since I was like 7 years old. I can't attend UT with a baby. I wanted to travel and see this vast creation God has made. I can't do that with a baby. I'm a teenager who has no idea what I'm doing. Guess that's no excuse. I feel pretty hopeless right now.
Who would I tell first? (Other than Lette)...Could I tell Emet before my own mom? But then again Emet could help me approach my mom if he knew first. Ughhh, I don't know what to do! I'm only a teenager. This wasn't what I would've thought of when I thought of high school. There goes the nest four years. Kiss them goodbye.
Time is just a thing.
u can't ever have to little.
u can always have enough.
But when u look at it,
our lives are just a piece.
A piece of what time has to give.
So why not live the fullest,
to what we can.
Why waste it wishing,
on something you'll never have.
Let time do its own thing,
so we can do ours.
u see time is mysterious.
It controls our lives.
And in one quick second,
our time may be up.
So take what you're given,
and give nothing back.
With time nothing is ever what it seems.
u can't ever have to little.
u can always have enough.
But when u look at it,
our lives are just a piece.
A piece of what time has to give.
So why not live the fullest,
to what we can.
Why waste it wishing,
on something you'll never have.
Let time do its own thing,
so we can do ours.
u see time is mysterious.
It controls our lives.
And in one quick second,
our time may be up.
So take what you're given,
and give nothing back.
With time nothing is ever what it seems.
Photograph by Ansel Adams
I'm just drifting, drifting down this road.
The dust kicking up behind me,
Just a wolk to hide my past.
My feet don't leave any footprints,
My name never graces those lips
That I'm watching from a distance,
A distance that grows greater
As I'm drifting, drifting down this road.
I'm not on the way to anything great,
I'm just hiding, hiding down in the dark.
The shadows closing in around me,
Just a blanket to smother my past.
My eyes can't see in the gloom,
My voice never breaks the silence
That I keep deep in my heart,
A hart-, hart that grows blacker
As I'm drifting, drifting in the dark.
